Monday, March 8, 2010

So I'm fat

Having a bit of a "I hate my body" moment so instead of letting it sit I will write about it, get it out in the open and I'll feel better about it as it will help me come up with solutions.

I am currently 76kgs. I am only 155cms or 5'1". I am a size 12-14 depending on the style and company. Size and weight doesn't really bother me as much as how i FEEL. I feel so tired and sick when I don't exercise so why don't I do it? because. but. excuse after excuse. There is no excuse, there is only me. Yes I was teased and bullied about my weight as I grew up. But that is no excuse as to why I let myself get unhappy. I want to do the city to bay run/walk. But I won't get there unless I push myself to do something.

We are due to do a big grocery shop. I am going to change what we get for everyday meals. I am going to remove all unhealthy snack options. I will stop snacking after dinner. It is only done out of habit anyway. I need to start having breakfast in the morning. And a cup of green tea would go down well as well.

I know what to do. I just need to DO IT.